Tsunami in making ?

It leaps high,

unsure of what to destroy,

calms down again.

And one day,

a whisper,

a word,

makes it rise higher than what can calm down again.

Is it a tsunami in making?

© anu (Exploring Myself)

Really?

Is it true that You were once alone?

Is it true that once You were lost in Your painful groan?

I wonder...

I always thought it was only me,

Who was lonely and alone.

I had always wished,

I'd have a companion,

And, I later realized,

I couldn't have.... even the least minion.

I don't know what I'm actually speaking,

For though it sounds like my mind,

It's more of my own musings to myself.

And this isn't a sane state.

I wish I was wither fully sane,

Or else...

Completely insane.

©2010 anu (Exploring Myself)

Collaborating Poems

I used to write at different places. And the result? My efforts would be diversified, energy spread all around than being properly channelized. So, I'm trying to collect out as many compositions as I can at one place.

Here are three of them:

Masks

First M. Get lost.

Second M. Please get lost.

Third M. I told You I'm not interested.

Fourth M. Please leave me alone, and do not come back.

Fifth M. I request You sincerely, to please leave me alone.

Sixth M..... turns away and leaves, without uttering a word

Masks dropped... I wish He/she could understand and this could be ended gracefully. I hope He recovers, for I know it had to hurt, and that is what I wanted to avoid.

Scars

I had a dream

I heard a scream

Awake at 3, much before the dawn...

I was afraid, shrieks in my head, I didn't dare yawn.

Looking up into the mirror,

I shivered with fear.

My searing scars caused

to trickle down a tear.

Dropping down on the bed again,

I didn't sleep any more.

Thinking of the hurt, the pain,

I felt worthless as a used whore.

The pain of love,

The hurt of being left alone and used.

My heart wept and grieved,

My mind muzzled and confused.

I could hear in my head,

"Time, heals all scars...."

'Shut Up!!!" silently I screamed,

I felt like the moon, alone amidst the stars.

And then to me,I felt,

a truth reveal.

Some scars are meant to teach,

and hence not all scars heal.

Bliss

Seeking...

constant, unending.

Thirst...Unquenched,

Hunger... Satiated not.

Hunger of the soul it was.

Hunger for my whole it was.

Fragmented, I wandered alone.

Paths of religion, lifestyle, vanilla, altruism...

For me worked absolutely None :(

The blend of love, lust and control.

The love that would join the shards of my broken self,

and.... make me whole.

It was then I realized....

What you had given to me...

Love - Unsaid, Untold.

Pain - more than I could hold.

Pleasure - Thousandfold

But calm?

Can it be ever told?

The calm of my spirit and yours unified.

The calm of my hunger satisfied.....

And yours too..

By feeding on those parts of our souls we shared.

Bringing us....

Silent Bliss.

©2010 anu (Exploring Myself)

King Tut's beard

Ok people,

I'm always blamed to be one who has zero sense of humour. So, to make me humorous, a friend of mine, gave me a nonsense topic to write some 15 lines about it, a nonsense verse, without using words starting with letters M, T, R. But like You know....I take nonsense seriously too :P

So, here it is Ladies and Gentlemen: Trum pa Pum pa Trum pa pum pa trum pa pum pa pum!!!

King Tut's Beard!!!!!

King Tut's beard was infested with lice.

But, he wouldn't hear anyone's advice.

He found it fashionable,

and had heard in a fable,

he who wears lice, never ever dies.

His queen, born of a French and a Swiss.

Ended up aghast after every kiss.

His kids kept away,

His courtiers wouldn't stay,

But he never perceived anything was amiss.

At ceremonies kingly, His beard He scratched.

His neighbouring kings always found him wretched.

Lice infesting further his hair,

dropping from his beard everywhere,

and in all hatcheries, only lice eggs hatched.

A powerful king *Strut* visited his state.

Disappointed when he anticipated the state's fate.

He swore an oath,

ensuring people's growth.

And waged a war against Tut's state.

Tut and Strut stood face to face,

Strut with a sword, unsheathing it with grace.

Tut didn't bother,

Not once did he smother.

Calm and cool, He just scratched His face.

Swarms and swarms of His beard's lice.

Held Strut's army like iron in the vice.

With faces whitened,

the enemy was frightened

never had they seen such a strategic device.

Hen in an iron grip by Tut's beard's lice.

With his life, Strut had to pay the price.

Nobody could ever defeat Tut,

None could once unseat Tut,

All because King tut's bear was infested with lice.

Trum pa Pum pa Trum pa pum pa trum pa pum pa pum!!!

©2010 anu (Exploring Myself)

I am but a part of You

I look at the sky,
the roof so high,
spread equally over head,
hiding the cosmos shy.

I look at the earth,
the Terra firma.
spread beneath the feet,
vast hiding lava and magma.

I view the oceans,
spread vast and beyond.
with water unrestrained,
hiding... of tears and salt.... a bond!

I wonder where on this vast land...
A tiny speck like me has a stand?
I realize, I'm but everywhere,
as long as I care, as long as I share.

I'm nothing and
None the less a being divine too,
for Lord, I'm nothing,
I'm but, a part of You.



©anu (Exploring Myself)

Deleting and importing another of my blogs.....

Prologue:this post consists of the six poems on my other blog..I have decided that I will gradually reduce the number of my blogs to even a lesser number and gradually delete all the rest for the sake of manageability. I had posted these few poems on that blog and am posting them all here with dates and times of older posts, and also the comments of the readers:

Monday, June 1, 2009
Poison and Elixir

Life wasn't elixir....
till You came in.....
Its poision since.....
you gave in.....

Often I think,
with some remorse....
what if life would've taken...
A different course?

What if we'd been together,
till the end!
Writing our names,
in caves and not on sands.

But, life's often,
poison and elixir both together!!
In disguise of poison.....
its pure elixir!!

Trust me!

Posted by Exploring Myself at 1:06 PM


Thursday, September 11, 2008
Cheating oneself

Life, often cheats itself.
Not because,
it wants to cheat,
or be cheated.
But, rather because,
cheating sometimes brings solace........
even though temporary.

However,
the mind,
the brain and the soul,
doesn't wish to cheat.
Cheating however, still happens,
and to an extent,
helps.
because it brings joy,
even though temporary.

Tendency to cheat,
is actually a form of,
tendency to feel comfortable.
The tendency to find things,
that you want,
that you don't get,
and that you desire with a drive.
And all that,
what is deserved but not received.....

Posted by Exploring Myself at 4:59 AM



Friday, August 8, 2008
Surrender

Surrender.....
The spirit of it........
Makes one crave for more.

Sincere and serene,
it brings peace within,
only so long its not forced by cruelty.
If consensual, and respectful,
submission helps one grow,
and in one develops all the humility.

I wish to surrender,
to someone whom I'll know deserves.
It may be God or Man,
I'm not yet sure.
But all that is wish,
is to finally strive to perfection,
and deep in my heart,
feel surrender so pure.

Posted by Exploring Myself at 4:04 PM



Thursday, August 7, 2008
Virtue and Vice

Is it Virtue?
To seek from one, who doesn't wish to give?
Is it Vice?
To take from one, who wishes to surrender?

Life,
often doesn't wish to give.
And I?
I try to snatch.
Is it Vice?
Its forced isn't it?
Is it Virtue?
Yes, if Might is Right!

Definitions change with perceptions.

And is it Vice or Virtue?
That I wish to surrender,
or that I don't wish to surrender?


Why is it that definitions change?
Why is it that perceptions change?

Perhaps because,
Times........ change and........
People.......... change.

Posted by Exploring Myself at 10:45 PM


Split me.......

Pain,
Agony,
Sorrow,
and Grief,
beyond endurance.......
Have become, an integral part of Me.

Causing me,
to split myself,
to rip myself into 2.

One that craves for it and,
one that loathes it.
One that enjoys,
one that resists and Blocks it.......

They both co-exist, and they know that they do.
I'm not a Schizophrenic yet.

But then why this...........?

Posted by Exploring Myself at 10:38 PM
Blogger chyrenselin said...

the necessity for meditation:
even a buffalo will reach its home without asking
anybody else if it is left ten kilometers away from its home.
even birds are traveling thousands of kilometers
and reach their nests every season.
but man cannot come home without asking anybody else
if he is put away from his home in an unknown place.
Even during the tsunami 2004 in Thailand you can see in
u tube
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=a-8_wEm7t8k&feature=related


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-JDJs_5kQQ

that people are standing in the shore looking at the sea which is
coming at an up normal hight without running away and escape
from the waves even ten seconds before the death.
But animals and birds have escaped from the sight even two hours
before the incident.
why?
the intuition and the subconscious mind is covered by the
mind which is highly developed by uncontrollable thinking
permanently. the mind is perpetuate. (it will be existing by itself
permanently)
an indian is thinking in indian languages and an englishman in english
and an italian in italy and so on. since the languages are easily
available to the brain it is thinking permanently without stopping
even if he wishes to stop it.
eventhough the languages are the reason for the development
of the human race in all fields since the thinking is the base of all
developments but he lost his intuitive powers since the mind is
covering the inner mind (the subconscious mind) as he cannot
stop his mind when he wishes. it becomes a curse.
now the man has lost his identity, his individuality in the midst of thoughts.
he lost himself. he lost his intuitive powers.
now the mind is like a car in an open place without any restrictions
as it can go zig zag anywhere else.
chanting any words repeatedly ( any words in any religion in any method)
will make the mind a little controlled. it is the prayer.
it is now like a train which is going in fixed rails which cannot go
here and there which is controlled by the track.
above this level comes the meditation.
in this you are not thinking anything. you are not doing anything.
you are simply sits. you are zero. it is like the car or train stopped
permanently. it is not moving. it is not going anywhere else.
nirviruthi thyan....pathanjali yoga sutra ...1.1
no mind is meditation.... .osho.
it is the brahmam of hinduism. it is the zero of budhdha. it is the zen of zenism.
it is the supersoul of christianity. it is the sufi of islam. and so on.
whatever may be the name the result is one.
anywhere in the world, anywhere in the religion, whatever may be the
approach, whatever may be the method you are reaching only one stage.
you are in total zero.
after all human beings are having only one system of brain and they
will reach only one stage. get only one result.
meditate. be zero. be happy. be in bliss.

November 20, 2008 2:57 PM
Blogger chyrenselin said...

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November 20, 2008 2:59 PM


Aham Brahmasmi

Life, gives me nothing,
and I get everything.
It gives me everything,
but, I get nothing.
Perhaps, because I know, because I believe,
that everything is nothing and nothing is everything.

If cipher begins the count,
and expands..... to infinity;
nothing....... becomes everything!

If space WILL someday.....
collapse to the Black hole,
Everything WILL be Nothing then.

But,
I shall remain,
Eternal, ever existing,
and Ever prevalent;
I am,
I exist,
in.....
Whatever, I do,
I seek,
I explore,
I find.
Because.......
I AM I.
I am Brahman - The Everything!
I am I - but, just Nothing

Posted by Exploring Myself at 9:11 PM
Blogger Exploring Myself said...

Brahman in Hindu Philosophy is the eternal effulgence of GOD
August 7, 2008 11:35 PM

©anu (Exploring Myself)