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Vaccum: the soul v/s the mind and heart

I am suffering from another of my vacuum pangs........ those pangs of the typical bipolar depressive phases. I am trying to absorb myself in work, even extra work, even that which doesn't bring me any benefits, neither monetary, nor intellectual or educational.

A part of me is cribbing about the extra work, but the fact is that the extra work exists because I agree to its existence. If I deny doing some work, no one can force me to do it, but the fact is that I do not want to deny it either. Why? because I know, if I stay back at Home, I'll have those bouts of a quarrelsome mood, and a very negative attitude. So, its better I work.

This vacuum seems to be more of an emotional and psychological nature rather than being that of a physical or materialistic nature, though the precipitating causes can be something as simple as .............why did a friend not pick my call just when I called, or why did mom not cook a certain vegetable, or why wasn't my printer functioning (though it now is).

Lord,
Help me sustain,
Help me survive.
Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Mind, Body,Heart and Soul

The mind, body, heart and soul relation is somthing that has often intrigued me. It is not something to be easily understood, and yet, at the same time, excessively simple. For eg. my heart wanted to post this entry months ago. I had started this post months back, perhaps as my first post, and its today that I'm colpleting it. Why? certainly because at times my bodily situations didnt support. at others my thoughts (mind) wasn't prettu focussed. and at many others, i didn't want to make my soul heavy with confession.

Heavy with confession? perhaps sounds stupid eh?. But, for me, it isn't stupid. Its very sensible, and very very logical. For me, my acknowledgement to the desires of my mind, heart and body, sometimes makes my soul feel guilty. or makes my mind feel guilty of soiling my soul perhaps. But, then at other times, i remember that soul actually is the purest spark of light, emmanating from God, with a certain amount of free will, and a purposeful body and mind.

at the same time, ideally to me, my bind, body and heart should be none, but just, means, methods, and tools to realize what ultimately my soul wants. Now this is where i get messed up. scriptures, seekers and Masters say its GOD that my soul wants and should wants. my question is how to be sure. I know its true by my faith, intuition and much more, but not with my logic. Or perhaps, logic doesn't work when we're talking of souls and super soul?

I understand that certain things are realizable truly only with experiences, and experiences of soul are such. However, i think i'm not yet ripe, and hence the experience doesn't come with the full impact. Perhaps, it will still take me some time, to reallise the path my soul wants to travel, and how my body, mind and heart fall in symphony to it. Or perhaps in gross sense, i do realise. Its just in the deeper senses, that I am not yet ready, and waiting.

This is one of the reasons, when i think about M/s dynamics in my life, i can't think of submitting my soul, since i feel my eternal submission is committed to GOD! Yes, I know people would say that's crap, and who's seen God, or if they are polite, perhaps they would say, that God is the eternal Master, but not realisable physically. Or else, they might also say, that to strike a balance there is a necessity to divide appropriately suited time, to the needs of the Mind, Body, Heart and soul. If I had to choose, I would choose the last attention, dividing time appropriately, but not complete forgetting in any manner.

Can't really think more at this time, will add as a sequel if anything comes to mind later on. :)

©anu (Exploring Myself)