Prayer

Lord,

Help me trust !!!
Those, who really care about me.
They might not be my friends, guardians, mentors or might not share a close relationship with me.
But,
They care nonetheless.

Save me from the delusions,
the confusion,
and, most importatly...
The diversions.

I come to You...

The all powerful!!
The Omnipresent, Omnipotent!
for the most humble surrender I can offer Lord.

With my shortcomings,
Any one may/may not,
but You will...
accept me!

I know :)

To Your shelter.

Hoping to stay...
Irrespective..
of my surrender.
within my own sweetness,
and within Your Mastery,
of all You've made.
Strong and firm,
Loving and not yet weak Lord.

This I seek in Your Name O Lord!

Amen!!!

© anu (Exploring Myself)

Today

I had been busy since early morning today, and though I should have been reading/chanting/meditating/sleeping today, am here writing this blog post.....

I worked and cleaned the meditation center today with a devotee sister. Later, I went to meet 2 renunciates....a Mother and a Sanyasi (a Swamiji). The nun wasn't really happy about it, since I had intruded at a wrong time ignorantly. Lord, forgive me for I caused them trouble.

The Swamiji was very peaceful, calm, and blissful, and told me about the visiting hours, and the procedure. He asked me why was I there, to which I couldn't provide an answer. I didn't really ask him anything, and he answered each one of the questions that were boggling my mind.

I had a lot of questions in my mind, spiritual mainly in nature, and yet I couldn't speak a single word, couldn't ask him even one.
And yet as he spoke to me generally, he addressed and answered each question I had. And when I was back, he messaged the other devotee to ask her if I ha something particular in mind when I went to see him. I requested the sister to write to him, that all my questions had been answered by him already.

I was touched both by the answers and the care afterwards. I was delighted rather. Or blissful will perhaps be an even better word. All the while I had been there, I had been unable to stop tears flowing from my eyes, because I felt at home.

Lord,

I know not thy shelter,
though I crave for it.
I know not my spiritual Master,
though,
I know, I seek Him through You, and I seek You through Him.

All I know is that You always hold me when I stumble.
So hold my hand Lord,
and guide me to Yourself,
Your eternal and Universal love,
and make me an instrument, willing to be used by You.

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)