| its all bout knowledge knowledge is the supreme power for evrything Me: Not all about it mostly about it ok lets say you've got all knowledge now what? what will you do with it? Him: share it with that lot which is unaware of what knowledge is it gives immense pleasure Me what gives the pleasure, the knowledge, the sharing, or the awe that you get from people? forgive me if any of my words might hurt you unintentionally But, do you now think that we are actually satisfying the desire to recognition when we talk about sharing what we know? Him its just the satisfaction Me when you discuss things in class, or learn about new things, isn't somewhere at the back of the mind there, a desire to be appreciated, and loved for the knowledge? Him no awe have you noted something like this?? Me No, I haven't not in your attitude but what made you ask if I've noted this? Him well its just to check dat hw u test ppl Me and lets say yes I have Him :) Me how would that matter, if that's not your tendency? Tell me something....... when S asked me not to lend you the book the other day, what got yuo irritated? was it the fact that she interfered in your business? Him no well.... Me see, am not interested in your personal issues, its just that you mentioned it, and am taking it as an example Him nothin prsnl Me and its gonna disappear from my thought once the discussion is over so what was the reason of iritation? Him its just dat wen m into sumthin i m just doin dat thing i made my minfd to read dat book Me and anyone who stops you from it, you get irritated right? Him and dan i was deprived of the wealth in dat book Me kool now, here's what I think about this You wanted some knowledge someone interfered you didn't get it now ........ you didn't like it right? Him its just the thought dat i won't b able to read dat buk dat irritated me Me but does this thought give you the wealth hidden in it? and the irritation? Him i dont think so :( Me and for those few moments when this irritating thought occupied you..... do you call them knowledgeable and knowledgeful moments? Him S has made dis happen to many others Me so, when this thought was on mind, neither did you get what you wanted, nor did you get something else, all you got was a negativity. and why should it matter to you? remember, Knowledge is bliss, when it teaches you to be blissful everytime The knowledge or the lack of the knowledge which causes any sort of irritation ......... is it bliss really? Him dis is wat d dilemma is all about Me I know there was a time, when I read anything and everything from religion, spirituality, science, to even erotica why?
because I loved what I learnt But then....... I realised....... somewhere deep down I was losing my humility losing touch with reality in the sense that I was forgetting that other people were better than me at different tings as well things* and then...... I understood with experience that.......... Knowledge is not only what you learn It is just the first step More of it is about practice, and most of it is about sharing However........ The essence is....... to gain, practice, share and yet not be attatched to it because unless you're detatched from the learnings, you'll not unlearn and make space for new learnings to come so bliss is only in things that are permanent, and if not permanent, then ever increasing why is knowledge blissful? because it is a way to know beyond what we know Him nw its getting clear Me beyond the material I know, beyond the concepts, and gradually.. beyond this world that I see and to see beyond this world is the aim of the knowledge..... This is Gyanyoga Him this is what even i thought about Me and it is not for everyone So, if you choose THIS as your path BE CAREFUL It will raise the ego It will make yuo arrogant and that will bring the weakness of mind, the diversion of energies and result........ fall down from the gyanyoga Him how would the mind beocme weak?? Me define weakness? weakness is of two types 1. lack of strength and 2. wastage of strength just like there're two kinds of deserts/ the hot and the cold in the cold desert..there is water but frozen Him yup Him ok Me similarly........ the brain is sharp but..... polluted unclear the understanding becomes foggy because it becomes conditional the moment you see people less intellectual......... you start thinking on their level while you should be thinking on yours conveing on theirs and then conveying on yours gradually whenever you see S........ or anyone else forthat matter....... you start thinking about things that ideally shouldn't get any attention and a part of your mind is diverted Him ya dats true Me you're hearing, but not fully listening you're seeing, but not visualising you're present there, but you aren't living the moment and that;s when you get only limited knowledge, not full On this note........... anything you want me to think about? Him nothing to think its all to observe Me what do you want me to observe? Him its for me to observe now u r already on a level where i cant reach in a long tym Me No dude, am no where practically no where compare it with the universe :) Him but i m sure 2 reach dere sumday Me You'll reach higher just keep two things in mind 1. keep learning Him and Me do not resist or control thoughts, feelings emotions, but just introspect basically.........aptitude and attitude and you'll reach much higher Him i'll abide by dis Me again don't bind yourself to anything anyone any at all Him binding in the sense?? Me keep that for the next session
©anu (Exploring Myself)
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