12.06.09 and 13.06.09

On the 11th I was better, though late night 10th I had asked him to call me, which he didn't and I was OK with it, as later I realized that I was being weak in expecting support from him, and not relying on myself. 11th I spent the whole day out roaming around with my friend, and had been sleeping every alternate night at her place. To keep myself distracted and away from excessive chatting or thinking, I adopted this method, and I succeeded once again!!

Since the day I visited the psychiatrist, I took the medicines only twice!!!! As usual, not taking medicines :|

Lord is merciful and great and helps me a lot.

12th I went to inquire about admission in MBA program to the best local B-school, and decided in favor. Was busy the whole day working on the formalities, inquiring about loan facilities, and in the end by the evening decided finally against it :)

I had somehow known that this would happen.

Today morning was very tense, in the sense that I was worried, frustrated and confused as to what to do, and I messaged him asking if he could find me some free lance work though I am trying my resources as well. But by the end of today evening, I was able to decide what I have to do, and though he didn't call me, nor I expected him to, I had waited for his phone call.

Things are getting easier on my mind, and I'm thankful to The Almighty who's helping me with it.

Thank You God!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)