Saturday, May 16, 2009

Day/Night Out

I am in a different town since today noon. I traveled from Home at 10 in the morning, and its now almost 12 midnight 17th my date/time. I'm happy to be here, and in this change. Attended a formal meeting, and worked hard, and then partied harder. I am actually glad to be here, working for this organisation, and I wish each day was the same. Every single day I wish!

Not only because I love this work, Yes that's one of the main reasons, but even a greater one is that it helps me block memories off.It helps me keep my mind off a few things that I don't want to think about.

Called 'him' up, and 'he' called me back for a single moment, just one minute and a few seconds, and said that he'd try to talk in the night, which I was sure he wouldn't, and he didn't. Not that it really affects me though.

I called up a friend too, and he'd been busy the whole day, so couldn't talk, another's father got discharged from the ER today, and another one called me up whilst I was with the others, and hence I couldn't attend the calls.

It feels good at times, to tell people that you're busy and that too because of a genuine reason. I think of not calling 'him' any more, and to take up the hints he tries giving me, but, I need more work to really keep me that busy.... at least till I find a new job. Let's see how it goes.

Help me God really!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

I know why.......

I am writing this blog earlier than the others..why? ...I'll be traveling tomorrow.......

I have decided that blogging is one thing that I'll be particular and regular about. I'll keep this one online ritual in my life, if none else..... Why? because I anyways would need to maintain a diary...a blog is easier to type than write in a notebook these days.

My writing habits are degenerating anyways...which I need to revive......but more than that....I need to keep the spirit of routine alive, at least in something.

I know I am improving....why.....because I want to....I'm desperate to.......to me the brighter is better than the darker....why because purity is what ultimately attracts me.......why, because I'm individuality!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)