The Ever - Changing me.....

I have changed... over the years, over last few months, few weeks, and even in the last few days. I have changed every minute of my life. And when I look back, I realize that some phases in my life have been more formulating than the rest of them.

I have been thinking since last night how every little thing influences an individual, changing them every passing moment in their lives. The friends that were valuable once, do not have any existence in life. Those who were very respected, are now hardly remembered. Those that were deeply loved, are now almost non-existent. This includes even the nearest family.

I am surprised how drastically has my understanding of good, bad, right and wrong has changed. How easy have I become to accepting things about which I wasn't flexible earlier. I notice my parents molding similarly too, my brothers, other elders, almost everyone. And which is why, when I train those youngsters, I keep reminding them.....'This will pass too!'.....

However, there's something that's remained constant......which is my faith in GOD!

It hasn't changed over the years, rather He has helped me enhance that. God has always been around like a helping hand, a savior and a guide, mentor, friend and parent. He has brought me out from the abysses of animal consciousness, and again and again too.

He has protected me from things I feared while also teaching me how to fight them. He has taught me how to survive something as good as death. He has held me when I couldn't walk, and supported me when I limped. He carried me when I was unconscious, and I know He'll do so.....as long as....I trust Him!

I know part of it sounds like a brainwash, but I guess I have my facts straight. Time and again I've indulged myself in emotional attachments, activities which were not suitable to my basic nature, and were of almost like an animal consciousness. I still do so. And, GOD DIDN'T STOP ME!

BUT, He protected me! He saved me when I wanted Him to. He brought me out of it to a consciousness higher when I prayed Him to. And prayer wasn't begging. Prayer was a straight acknowledgment of the fact that I've been doing things I shouldn't and a pledge that I shouldn't do them again. And. that was enough to evoke His love on me.

I wonder how my language has changed. There was a time when I said God's mercy. and today, its more of God's love for me, and less of His mercy. My relationship with Him has changed just like the hole lot of other things.

Lord,

Help me develop my relationship with You,

in the direction,

that would get me closer to You and Your heart(if that exists:) ).

Help me love You,

rather than fearing You.

Help me ask for Your love,

rather than asking for Your mercy.

Make me realize that YOU ALONE are worth desiring....

worth loving my Lord!

Make Yourself the Only Existent in my life...

in all forms,

in all individuals,

in all ideas,

in everything.

Make my motto .......

"GOD ALONE"

Amen.

I'm grateful to Those who've shown me the way to this Lovely Motto. specially Gyan Mata. Help me Mother :)

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Morality : Source and evolution

P.S. This is a scrap that I've posted to an Orkut thread and I wished to post it here too:

For sure, there is something that has developed in humans as they have evolved from a cro - magnon to the Modern man. This is what is in discussion - Morality and the source of it.

In my opinion this is something innate. Its source is the same as the source of Human existence. Even in the carnal and non developed state humans had some codes (though unwritten/ undocumented). So, obviously all that has happened is the fact that this trait has developed.

So, the source is the same source as that of Humans themselves. Now, those who say that Humans are an original species (believing in the divine origin of world, would say that the source of morality is God Himself)

Religion in my understanding isn't the source of Morality, it is the effect of morality and a collection of codes, ethics and practices which reveal that a man considers the concept of right/wrong good/bad etc.

However, accepting the scientific thought that man has evolved from another species....... Morality still remains innate. Some traits initially shared by the whole monkey family, developed greater in man, in the form of his rational mind, and hence by this perspective, the source of morality is again innate.

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Fair v/s Foul

Fair v/s foul has been an eternal battle and an eternal conflict. Everywhere, in everything and every time. In all aspects of life, in all lifestyles, in all philosophies, and in all thought patterns.
I remember having read about the 3 modes of nature, the mode of goodness, mode of passion and the mode of ignorance. However, that was much later in my life. Earlier my opinion was that the world is just black and white. I realized much later that there were shades of Gray and shades of the whole VIBGYOR. But, somehow I could never correlate with colors.

It was much later when I realized that, White is the Mode of Goodness, and Black is the Mode of Ignorance. All other colors and shades exist in the realm of the Mode of passion. However, what I have always believed, and still believe is that Mode of passion is something that helps one maintain the balance between White and Black, the Foul and the fair.


............ Honestly.......... my thoughts on this subject always seem to get overwhelmed, where in i can't put them in an organized fashion at all. so, i need to end it up here. will add as Fair v/s Fol (2 ) and (3) and so on, as and when i keep getting those.........................

©anu (Exploring Myself)