Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Life isn't easy

Life sucks!!! At times it does.... Especially when one's been trying hard to work around things and to prevent negativity from entering oneself :(

I have been trying hard to cope with my studies and my job and my personal life. The few things that I seek in life are :

1. A healthy relationship (This is of primary importance, since I'm by nature more of a 'heart' person.)
2. A settlement in career (This means a permanent and a stable career choice and not just a part-time option).
3. Some friends and my family, which would knit a support circle, as the above two are likely to take me into depression time and again:(

I am supposed to take some tough and difficult decision again.... I do not know how will I sustain.

Lord,

Help me sustain.

Amen!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Friday, January 1, 2010

New Year

Nothing to do about it from my end.......... I am the least bothered. Got over with a lot of new things and evaluated the way last year went.... Most of it ws fine, except a bit of involvement with things and people, I shouldn't have interacted with in the first place :(

Otherwise, it was a creative, and constructive new year, busy with forums, music, study, even a bit of gymming.....Also, one that finally ended up in the wrapping and closing down of all my extra reading. I've packed up all extra reading books in a carton and hidden them, so as to remove the distraction from study.

The next thing that needs to be done, is the telephone. And the third would be internet (Internet however, has been on a real low since last week).

Honestly, to me the arrival of a new year doesn't really matter much, rather, I'm bothered in the least. But, this time, I had to listen to it's knocking... for various reasons.

I have something to do with one year left at my disposal
I have to achieve certain emotional and psychological and personal goals for my self too.
I also have to set, these short term personal goals, in the long term, larger picture :)

I wish I could make that happen, and I know, I'll try my level best to make that happen.

For now, I start heavy posting based on my study, today onwards :|

©anu (Exploring Myself)