Another depressive Bout: heavy very heavy

Pre Script: this is a blog entry less about my thoughts and more about my feelings.

One of my best friends is getting married. First in 'my' circle. or rather so called 'my'. did I ever really have friends? i doubt. is it that I tend to cling to people and relationships? no, I grow out of them at the right time. She had started being unresponsive for past one year or rather more. So, i also eventually stopped calling. I thought she didn't want me to call her. Today she returned, more intense than ever. as a Friend who had really missed me.

She is getting married, but, why am i upset about it. I am happy, yes that's true. She is moving on to the next phase in her life, and its both Joyful, and important for her. and yet, I'm slightly upset, because i will be left even more lonely.

brother needs the PC, so would have to get up now. I know my thought process would be lost, but i will have to entertain it. I will write another entry after the right time. No point saving this entry and editing it later and stuff.

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Conditiong.......... contd....part 2

Fair v/s Foul: Often, the Religious cults and sects would deny the fact that they brainwash their followers. The standpoint is always of freewill.”They follow us since they feel its right, and of course by the books it is”.
On the other hand, the lifestyle followers of kinky fantasies put forth their explanations of desires of Human nature, human libidos and the fact, that dark is as good as bright and equal, so long it doesn’t affect others.

But, what I often wonder about is that how many of these so-called “followers” really know the truth of what they are following. The so-called “freewill”, is it really free? How many of these followers acknowledge the difficulties they faced to get accustomed to this certain sect or lifestyle that they now follow? Do they really remember, how many tears have they shed? How many forced smiles have they put on before they really started believing that this IS their smile? I doubt if many do.

I am not here to criticize any sect/lifestyle/fantasy or kink. I am not here to justify or blame any individual’s choices. That is not for me to do. However, as a free individual I am here pondering on what makes us follow whatever we follow. I feel, as soon as one is born in a family, they ARE conditioned. They are conditioned, in the mother’s womb, outside it, within the family, out in the society, everywhere. We are bound to be conditioned. The question is why? And the next question is How to get rid of this conditioning?

Why and How: The question of Why and How requires both scientific and philosophical logic. Scientific logic would be required to understand the psychology and the functioning of Human mind, and the variations observable for the same. At the same time, Philosophical Logic is required to understand the effect of various kinds of convincing and conditionings given to those targets/victims/followers, which require more of mental conditioning and logical convincing. Also, Philosophical Logic and understanding of ethics would play a vital role in understanding cultural and religious brainwash.

Both the questions can be correctly answered only by the combination of the two aspects of reasoning.

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Conditioning of Human Mind: Slavery to a preconceived idea or life style.

Various Forms: Sexual and Domestic Slavery, Love, Religion, Fictional/Alternative Lifestyle, Social Customs.


Means and Methods: Physical Force, Mental Breakdown, Philosophical Justifications, Cultural excuses, Financial attractions, Emotional Conditioning, Attack on the defense system by bringing the target in the mode of struggle for survival (rather, surrender for survival).
It can be clearly observed that different means are used in different kind of conditionings. It is emotional in case of love, where the victim is convinced that she/he is loved, and used to the lover’s advantages. It is philosophical justification in most forms of Religious Schools. Financial attractions may be the tool used in case of Domestic and sexual slavery. Physical force, brutality and exploitation of fear of existence and, the well being of one’s loved beings, has been an eternally used tool. A combination of 2 or more factors may often be observed in different kinds of conditioning.

Mechanism of Brainwash: The mechanism of Brainwash is different for different victims/targets and different goals to be attained. It also varies from predator to predator. It also depends on how easy or tough is the target. This is indicated by the extent of brutality/convincing used to make one succumb to the conditioned thought pattern. I have heard many BDSM lifestylers often say, that Dominance and Submission is in the mind. So, the simplest explanation of the mechanism of Human mind conditioning would be to convince that what the target/follower/victim is doing is right, and that they ought to do it. This may happen by any of the modes and means mentioned above.