Monday, May 3, 2010

Collaborating Poems

I used to write at different places. And the result? My efforts would be diversified, energy spread all around than being properly channelized. So, I'm trying to collect out as many compositions as I can at one place.
Here are three of them:

Masks
First M. Get lost.

Second M. Please get lost.

Third M. I told You I'm not interested.

Fourth M. Please leave me alone, and do not come back.

Fifth M. I request You sincerely, to please leave me alone.

Sixth M..... turns away and leaves, without uttering a word

Masks dropped... I wish He/she could understand and this could be ended gracefully. I hope He recovers, for I know it had to hurt, and that is what I wanted to avoid.

Scars

I had a dream

I heard a scream

Awake at 3, much before the dawn...

I was afraid, shrieks in my head, I didn't dare yawn.

Looking up into the mirror,

I shivered with fear.

My searing scars caused

to trickle down a tear.

Dropping down on the bed again,

I didn't sleep any more.

Thinking of the hurt, the pain,

I felt worthless as a used whore.

The pain of love,

The hurt of being left alone and used.

My heart wept and grieved,

My mind muzzled and confused.

I could hear in my head,

"Time, heals all scars...."

'Shut Up!!!" silently I screamed,

I felt like the moon, alone amidst the stars.

And then to me,I felt,

a truth reveal.

Some scars are meant to teach,

and hence not all scars heal.

Bliss

Seeking...

constant, unending.

Thirst...Unquenched,

Hunger... Satiated not.

Hunger of the soul it was.

Hunger for my whole it was.

Fragmented, I wandered alone.

Paths of religion, lifestyle, vanilla, altruism...

For me worked absolutely None :(

The blend of love, lust and control.

The love that would join the shards of my broken self,

and.... make me whole.

It was then I realized....

What you had given to me...

Love - Unsaid, Untold.

Pain - more than I could hold.

Pleasure - Thousandfold

But calm?

Can it be ever told?

The calm of my spirit and yours unified.

The calm of my hunger satisfied.....

And yours too..

By feeding on those parts of our souls we shared.

Bringing us....

Silent Bliss.




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