I started this post on 24th of April and left it as such. Saw the movie again and restarted this. Hope I am able to post it today :)The text in ** is what I wrote the other day and the rest is what I am writing now.
**There are a lot of things going on in my mind, including two things primarily :)
1. The Movie - My name is Khan
2. My personal decisions that have grown.
So, may this post be on "My Name is Khan"
I was watching this movie last night, and was amazingly touched. The struggle of a man, with Asperger's Syndrome, Rizwan Khan who's is in America. A man who loses the love of his life, his son from that wife,.....**
So, my name is not Khan and no, I'm not a terrorist. My name is my name and I am a lot of things, but none worth being judged about unless I harm someone. I am someone not successful, partly orthodox and not someone who's very well to do. But I'm so blessed.
It was after I saw this movie that I in actual sense realized that it's the inclination, the thought process and the desire that differentiates one from the rest of the people. It's not money, nor fame, nor strength and nothing else that matters when You want to do something, whether for yourself or for others.
I remembered 'Thakur' 'super 30' and loads of other people. I remembered an article from the Hindu that said that the American has a tendency to give back to it's country. I remembered today's newspaper....Britain thinks of cutting down the help aid to India.
And I don't know what bothers me more? My not being good enough for an IIM or my country not being good enough to be self sufficient. This is not the first time I've thought about being self-sufficient and later doing something for the society. But, I always stopped back thinking I am helpless unless settled myself. I have often thought about not helping people unless they really deserved.
And now what has this to do with Khan?
This has got to do this :
Khan helped people of Wilhelmina, without doing anything other than simply pursuing what he wanted. And people followed. And yes I can change things too :)
And that's it :)
Lord,
Help me discover the unique strength I have.
Help me perform the task You created me for.
Help me prove You exist,
And,
Help me to prove that You alone are Love :)
Amen!
©2010 anu (Exploring Myself)
