I have crossed a mark of the viewership of 1000 and my profile shows the data as around 1000 views, which I guess increases after every 10/20. And I'm just writing this post to mark the day, and the time!!!
Thank You Eternal source of all Knowledge, Love and Success!!!
©anu (Exploring Myself)
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Purpose behind everything
I was going through the older blogger posts, and I read some of them today. I think I know that something has really struck me hard. Something that has left an impression very severely on my mind. And not just about the very good things and happenings of my life, but also the 'not so good' happenings of my life.
GOD HAS A PURPOSE BEHIND EVERYTHING!!
Yes, I know it sounds brain-washed, but its true. I look back at my life, and all through my life I see a strong conviction that my soul belongs to God, and those people who are in His loving service. Behind all my hobbies, all my desires, all my needs, want, ethics, value system and upbringing, the only purpose has been to make me someone absorptive to His eternal vibrations, and capable of serving Him better.
God made me a singer, since He wants me to sing His glories(they alone are what's worth singing). He made me an avid reader, so I could read scriptures, and know what He is, why He is and the rest of metaphysics, ethics, concepts and Vedanta (Which I hope to learn some day). He made me expressive, so that the day I preach or I write about His glories, I do it well.
All through me, He's been reflecting His glory, and I've been wasting His gifts in things not at all comparable to Him. I don't abhor myself or loathe things and activities, situations and people I've known, tried, experimented with.....I might have earlier, had I not realized the purpose behind. But the purpose was simple....To help me be convinced that in the end...all mundane things ARE temporary and useless.....
But the best part about God is that He never stops anyone from wanting or doing anything and pays them back in the same form. So, all those who wish to belong to Him EVEN ONCE, He takes them in His own shelter permanently, no matter how distracted they might get. And He loves us all!!!! He does!!!
So, here I am, thanking Him for all that He had planned, the way He constantly has protected me, and the love He has showed to me.
Lord,
Help me spread your love ,
to every soul who touches mine,
and may I still become an everlasting....
ever-flowing source of Your love,
as long as You want.
Amen!!
©anu (Exploring Myself)
GOD HAS A PURPOSE BEHIND EVERYTHING!!
Yes, I know it sounds brain-washed, but its true. I look back at my life, and all through my life I see a strong conviction that my soul belongs to God, and those people who are in His loving service. Behind all my hobbies, all my desires, all my needs, want, ethics, value system and upbringing, the only purpose has been to make me someone absorptive to His eternal vibrations, and capable of serving Him better.
God made me a singer, since He wants me to sing His glories(they alone are what's worth singing). He made me an avid reader, so I could read scriptures, and know what He is, why He is and the rest of metaphysics, ethics, concepts and Vedanta (Which I hope to learn some day). He made me expressive, so that the day I preach or I write about His glories, I do it well.
All through me, He's been reflecting His glory, and I've been wasting His gifts in things not at all comparable to Him. I don't abhor myself or loathe things and activities, situations and people I've known, tried, experimented with.....I might have earlier, had I not realized the purpose behind. But the purpose was simple....To help me be convinced that in the end...all mundane things ARE temporary and useless.....
But the best part about God is that He never stops anyone from wanting or doing anything and pays them back in the same form. So, all those who wish to belong to Him EVEN ONCE, He takes them in His own shelter permanently, no matter how distracted they might get. And He loves us all!!!! He does!!!
So, here I am, thanking Him for all that He had planned, the way He constantly has protected me, and the love He has showed to me.
Lord,
Help me spread your love ,
to every soul who touches mine,
and may I still become an everlasting....
ever-flowing source of Your love,
as long as You want.
Amen!!
©anu (Exploring Myself)
Irresistible Urge
Someone came home at around 10 : 45 and my mom woke me up to meet her up
and since then I've been awake, and now my mind is just restless. I had this strong urge to write, so I'm up again, blogging.
I have a lot of thoughts rushing through my mind. Right from my reflections from the classes I've been taking to the interactions and discussions with Swamiji.
Whilst I wish to write more about the classes, at the same time I also want to write more about the way the students reacted, and the way I responded to their queries....the kind of questions they asked....the ease with which they flew from my name to Ma'am...... I loved it when more than half said they wanted me to stretch the session longer, and even more when.... they said that they would like to discuss things with me personally.
I have decided that whilst I work on their personalities, their enhancements and their individual strengths and weaknesses, I'll work on mine too. Next full month is going to be dedicated to English and Communication and soft skills. I will try to imbibe in me the strengths and to remove from me the weaknesses or not so strong points that I have.
The only apprehension that I have is that I may find it very tedious, stressful and tiresome. I am already cranky by the end of the day now, and obviously the more the stress is, the worse my situation would be. The students are already expecting a lot from me, since they are looking forward to someone who can listen to them, while treating THEM as adults and mature individuals and with an attitude of a peer. They basically need an individual mentor with a blend of a senior adult and a friend, and I know how it feels. All, I can try doing is try and meditate and increase my meditating capacity so that I can help people better by becoming a better channel to the eternal and everlasting source of knowledge, love and compassion.
I had been thinking last few days, how my life is revolving around a certain place and a certain person in a very special manner. I have been visiting Swamiji for last few days, almost regularly and I love the sessions. I generally go there with questions in my mind, and I generally get my answers without even asking for them. He's just awesome in that sense.
He's been treating me differently on different days. The first day, he was polite, formal and yet showed a warmth. The second day when I want was a weekly off on the center, and yet he gave me time. The third meeting was the same evening, with Didi, where I knew he was talking to someone about something, but indirectly he was giving me answers. The immediate next day I went to him again in the evening, when he offered me a chair instead of a mat. This was almost an honor and an action odone on purpose, and he gave me a valid reason for it when I asked him about that.
The next two days were those days when I had constantly tried to go and visit him, and failed, and today again I went twice. Once in the morning, when there was the group talk, and I left from there, since he seemed to be busy in some administrative activities of the centre. Late, in the evening, I was unexpectedly late because of that unanticipated extra lecture by splitting the extra-large group of students who had wanted to attend sessions.
But, with his natural grace, ease and warmth he again gave me time, lesser today, just half an hour but he did, and when this time for the first time I asked him something serious, he answered in seeming riddles, which are crystal clear.
I know I'm going to visit him more often, trying to chant, meditate and do whatever I can. This time, I do want to speed up my spiritual journey and he says, one can choose the way one desires, loves and feels comfortable with. Nonetheless, he equally emphasises 'Samagna Saadhna'.
The only thing that I find worrying is my attatchment to certain things, people and situations which I know (for the better and logical reasons) are futile. However, I am not able to get rid of them, and today without asking how (though I wanted to)< he said himself that we aren't supposed to throw them away, just that we shouldn't indulge ourselves into them.
O Almighty Father,
I don't have words to offer in prayer today.
But, I have what you gave me,
I have that you made me.
I have what you want me to use,
and,
I offer to Thee,
Thy blessings and gifts,
as a token of submission to Your will and my destined path.
Give me strength O Lord,
so I may please You, as You desire, as You wish, and as best as You allow me to.
Amen!!!
p.s. It sounds something like..... (Kya mera hai jo aj tumhe de daalooon)
©anu (Exploring Myself)
I have a lot of thoughts rushing through my mind. Right from my reflections from the classes I've been taking to the interactions and discussions with Swamiji.
Whilst I wish to write more about the classes, at the same time I also want to write more about the way the students reacted, and the way I responded to their queries....the kind of questions they asked....the ease with which they flew from my name to Ma'am...... I loved it when more than half said they wanted me to stretch the session longer, and even more when.... they said that they would like to discuss things with me personally.
I have decided that whilst I work on their personalities, their enhancements and their individual strengths and weaknesses, I'll work on mine too. Next full month is going to be dedicated to English and Communication and soft skills. I will try to imbibe in me the strengths and to remove from me the weaknesses or not so strong points that I have.
The only apprehension that I have is that I may find it very tedious, stressful and tiresome. I am already cranky by the end of the day now, and obviously the more the stress is, the worse my situation would be. The students are already expecting a lot from me, since they are looking forward to someone who can listen to them, while treating THEM as adults and mature individuals and with an attitude of a peer. They basically need an individual mentor with a blend of a senior adult and a friend, and I know how it feels. All, I can try doing is try and meditate and increase my meditating capacity so that I can help people better by becoming a better channel to the eternal and everlasting source of knowledge, love and compassion.
I had been thinking last few days, how my life is revolving around a certain place and a certain person in a very special manner. I have been visiting Swamiji for last few days, almost regularly and I love the sessions. I generally go there with questions in my mind, and I generally get my answers without even asking for them. He's just awesome in that sense.
He's been treating me differently on different days. The first day, he was polite, formal and yet showed a warmth. The second day when I want was a weekly off on the center, and yet he gave me time. The third meeting was the same evening, with Didi, where I knew he was talking to someone about something, but indirectly he was giving me answers. The immediate next day I went to him again in the evening, when he offered me a chair instead of a mat. This was almost an honor and an action odone on purpose, and he gave me a valid reason for it when I asked him about that.
The next two days were those days when I had constantly tried to go and visit him, and failed, and today again I went twice. Once in the morning, when there was the group talk, and I left from there, since he seemed to be busy in some administrative activities of the centre. Late, in the evening, I was unexpectedly late because of that unanticipated extra lecture by splitting the extra-large group of students who had wanted to attend sessions.
But, with his natural grace, ease and warmth he again gave me time, lesser today, just half an hour but he did, and when this time for the first time I asked him something serious, he answered in seeming riddles, which are crystal clear.
I know I'm going to visit him more often, trying to chant, meditate and do whatever I can. This time, I do want to speed up my spiritual journey and he says, one can choose the way one desires, loves and feels comfortable with. Nonetheless, he equally emphasises 'Samagna Saadhna'.
The only thing that I find worrying is my attatchment to certain things, people and situations which I know (for the better and logical reasons) are futile. However, I am not able to get rid of them, and today without asking how (though I wanted to)< he said himself that we aren't supposed to throw them away, just that we shouldn't indulge ourselves into them.
O Almighty Father,
I don't have words to offer in prayer today.
But, I have what you gave me,
I have that you made me.
I have what you want me to use,
and,
I offer to Thee,
Thy blessings and gifts,
as a token of submission to Your will and my destined path.
Give me strength O Lord,
so I may please You, as You desire, as You wish, and as best as You allow me to.
Amen!!!
p.s. It sounds something like..... (Kya mera hai jo aj tumhe de daalooon)
©anu (Exploring Myself)
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