All alone : A small prayer for patience

Lord,

Help me realize what You seek from me.
To be able to survive lonely,
all alone.

Give me strength to fight my need for reassurance.
The need for submission, Lord!
Let it be gone.

Bring me to the world of reality,
cruel, harsh and unpleasant though.
There's always a difference between what we seek and get,
The small difference Father!
Let me know.

Wisdom to change things,
the way they should be...
To change them,
when the time is right...
Grant me divine!
The will to accept,
those that I can't change..
with all my might.

Make me patient,
with those I care for.
And with those who're neither my friends...
Help me realize,
Love requires me to wait,
and worthy display patience and passion's blends.

Make me care for others Lord!
without being possessive for them.
Let me realize, they know the best,
and that You care for all of them.

Help me struggle,
with my concern and impatience,
in spite of the immense love,
with all might,
at all times,
and All Alone!!!

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Miracles

Miracles....
of love,
are immensely beautiful,
and wonderfully precious....

They however aren't always pleasant,
but at times bring love through hurt.

And, yet every moment in life,
is nothing,
but a moment of truth,
of magic,
A True Miracle!

Lord!
Help me see the omens of my life,
Help me move....
towards the destination...
You alone could have designed for me.

Help me realize,
that unless I cause harm,
All of my wishes and dreams,
are my arms...
In the battle of survival,
between Bliss and Grief.

Lord,
make me move ahead,
every moment, every day...
Towards the destination of service,
through humility's way.

Give me strength,
to change the things that I can.
And more to accept,
those that I can't.

And amidst the tears that silently flow,
of heart-ache and quiet pain...
Let my face reflect, learning's glow,
and let knowledge be my gain...

Lord, help me experience both sorrow and joy,
Wisdom from grief, and bliss to enjoy....
Give me the capability to share O Lord!
If I cannot break free from attachment's cord.....

Help me cause some miracles please!
In my demise I may smile with ease,
Glad to make some one feel loved,
With the mind firm, but heart gloved.

The miracles of love and beauty,
may they exist forever.
May Humanity succeed...
in Love's endeavor.


This I ask in Your holy name.

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Prayer: Failures and Success...confusion

Lord,
Guide me through the times,
both tough and easy.
Through times, when I do not know
what to ask of You, my Lord......

Amen!!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Diwali celebrations begin

Then decorated the floors with designs and patterns (Alpana and Maandana). I made several of them with washable colors, since they have to be kept for no more than 4
days. And definitely I wouldn't want the marble permanently colored :) But all the stairs
and the floors of course are looking very nice.

Today I'll do the glass sticking so that the light from lamps is reflected at each step,
and the home would light up excessively well today.I love Diwali, if not for anything
else, for the fact that it lets me use a lot of my creativity in the aesthetic sense.

Tomorrow would come the rangoli.......more lamps today and tomorrow. Of course tomorrow also would come the crackers.... most of them would not be bombs, and hence no noise, rather just firecrackers will loads of sparkles :)

©anu (Exploring Myself)

The festive spirit of man

The festive spirit of man is one of his basic instincts, both at the levels of flesh, mind as well as soul. Festivals satisfy, that deeply embedded need of joy, pleasure, merriment and enjoyment of which, the basic is in the need and requirement for bliss....

Sukhavasane idamev saaram.... This small Sanskrit phrase can be interpreted in many ways...In the end of joy, this is the conclusion, or that...the death of a human being in joy and pleasure is the only conclusion... can be the other interpretation.

Its surprising to note how infectious this festive spirit can be, and for a heart broken, how equally devastating can it be as well.

The best part about it however, is that, it lets man be in touch with his surroundings, in harmony with culture, environment, society, internal pleasure, celebrations, and even environment as in scientifically.

For eg. Diwali is one such festival...
Spiritually:it signifies the triumph of truth,
Mythologically:The return of Rama, back to His Home,
Socially: The festive spirit of man, and his keeping in touch with friends and family
Culturally: the lighting of lamps to destroy the darkness
Environmentally: The destruction of pests and insects by the process of white-washes...etc....

Not to say of course, that the festival equally affects the economics of the country and the politics (specially when it is governed by the religious sentiment of the people), as well.

This is a typical example of how a festival permeates its essence in all aspects of human life, and how it portrays the all-pervading festive spirit of human beings.

Till later,
Love

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Brida

The conflict of finding two soul mates in life is immense and devastating.... specially for One who'd weak of mind, and more than that, unsure of heart. Not an easy decision it would be, if Brida would have to choose. But she just didn't have to. She had been following what she had heard her heart saying. But, tough, yes it definitely was, for the wizard who loved her.

Older to her by a number of years in age, experience and tradition, he knew he was her soul mate and just the vice-verse too. But, he chose to wait, and eventually lose, and yet be happy. I cannot explain ho many times have I wept while reading this book by Paulo Coehlo!

I don't want to delete this post right now, and would rename it/reform/edit it, once I can re-organize my thoughts.

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Loneliness: need family

I know what a responsible, educated young woman.... or rather young lady means. But, the fact is I seek to have a family of my own. I wish I wouldn't have to worry about any sort of contributions, any sort of responsibility, and any sort of maturities.

Sometimes I think... Is money this important ? And, then I look at various examples of peopl and their lives all around me, to think that money IS definitely important. But there's something more important than that! Which is the sense of belonging. And we can't generate this sense of belonging. It has to come from within. I can very well imagine that I belong to some place, some people, a family or a group of friedns. But, the fact is that I still am lonely.... utterly, absolutely Lonely!

This sort of loneliness exists when the expectations in a relationship are higher than can be fulfilled or satisfied. Also, this sort of loneliness is there when we try to convince ourselves about the fake realities. Or, may be this is JUST my problem and nothing generic. Because, somewhere deep down in my heart, over the years, I have begun believing that this world is temporary, while soul is eternal, and hence I need things that are permanent too, and not those that are transient. Things and people or relationships, all mortal, wouldn't be able to satisfy me as something eternal would.

And yet, seeking eternal love or an eternal relationship, right from heaven, doesn't seem/isn't possible. Rather what seems possible is just being lonely and dead. Or else, to suffer amidst the numerous relationships across different births.

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't spiritual or even aware of the word spirituality. Specially when the desires of flesh overwhelm me. To avoid/pacify these desires, I've tried...........what not? Relationships (rather the idea of being in relationships), friendships, family relations, ergomania, literature, hobbies, meditation, going out and culture and what not!!
The result?
Nothing seems to work!
Reason?
They too aren't permanent!

Now the crux of the problem is that I need things and people who'd stay longer than any thing, and I get what's just momentary. So what should I do? Should I become a renunciate? NO, because I'm submissive but not 'that' submissive. I've never been able to submit my soul to any rituals, practices or anything except the true force of this universe. The cause behind all causes. The "Sarva-kaaran-kaaranam" ! In different forms, shapes, with different names and what not.

I need God........ but the trouble is.. I need Him in the human form, something of my personal incarnation. I do not need anything less than a Master. But a Master, not of my flesh or mind alone. A Master, who would guide my soul on its path, and yet accept that He doesn't own my soul. I sometimes think I need a spiritual Master. But, the trouble is that I can't be bound to a hard and fast set of rituals and practices. And that also, I CANNOT DENY the desires of flesh. I can definitely subside it to some extent, and to suppress it when important, but I cannot JUST forget them.

Solution......... get married? Yes perhaps, but then the duties and the obligations call!
I wish I could just let my mind not think about any of this stuff, and let my destiny shape what I desired.

Lord,
You who have given me the mouth,
Are One who feeds me!
And I ?
I desire things different than those You give me.
Help me desire only which I deserve Lord,
and grant me that I deserve, if so You please.
Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Vaccum: the soul v/s the mind and heart

I am suffering from another of my vacuum pangs........ those pangs of the typical bipolar depressive phases. I am trying to absorb myself in work, even extra work, even that which doesn't bring me any benefits, neither monetary, nor intellectual or educational.

A part of me is cribbing about the extra work, but the fact is that the extra work exists because I agree to its existence. If I deny doing some work, no one can force me to do it, but the fact is that I do not want to deny it either. Why? because I know, if I stay back at Home, I'll have those bouts of a quarrelsome mood, and a very negative attitude. So, its better I work.

This vacuum seems to be more of an emotional and psychological nature rather than being that of a physical or materialistic nature, though the precipitating causes can be something as simple as .............why did a friend not pick my call just when I called, or why did mom not cook a certain vegetable, or why wasn't my printer functioning (though it now is).

Lord,
Help me sustain,
Help me survive.
Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

The god of Earth

If to walk amongst us He chose,
it would be profanity. Some might say this.... but I guess thats not true.

If He stood high above, He could instill fear and not love, and then
one fine day....... He'd cease to be true.

For the fear of God, is not what humans need..... they long for an
entity, loving in deed.........

Thus, only when He walks the earth, shall He be the Real God!!!

Prayer:

If You are thee,
Please show me thyself.
For, I do not understand You,
but I wish to feel You,
and thenceforth always love You.

Amen!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

About Ourselves : Do we share?

I've been thinking about writing on this since a long time now. The question I have is... do we share? If yes, with whom and how much? and why? I have this knack of thinking in terms of my 5 W's and 2 H's. SO For this too :)

The question is.... DO we share?

and the answer is....... Most of us DON'T!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

I wish

My thoughts are very disoriented today, and I wish I could reorganize them

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Mai Nadiya Fir bhi main pyaasi.........

Loneliness looming over me..........
I stand all alone,
on the other shore of the river of live,
O traveler!
When would you come?
I wish you'd do that soon!!!

This is the closest I could get to the translation, and whilst I write this.... I am sick and tired of my life. Why, I wish I could put in words, and explain.....

Lord,
Grant me sustainance!

Amen

©anu (Exploring Myself)

I am who I am

I have beeen thinking last few days about who and what type of an individual am I. I sometimes feel that I am what the reality is... and at others what my fantacy is.... While I am both a slave and a tyrant when I read a medieval story, I am the white wizard if it comes to the wizard fantasy fiction. I am both a dragon slayer and a dragon ride, I am both Brida and also the magician. I am also Athena, as well as her teacher.

All these traits do not mean that I'm losing my mind, or that I do not know who I am, or that I have become Don Quixote who's lost in a world all unreal. The only thing this means is the fact that this world is just not the right for me. I picture myself as one who would design all these charachters. When I read these books, I live each of these charachters. There haven't been few days after I read Don Quixote that I worried I might once become like him. But, I somehow knew that I'd not be able to.

The only fact is that I wish to be larger than life. Though I do not underestimate myself, I know that real heroes turn out to be heroes, not because they are larger than life, but because they live each moment with all the passion and intensity they have. However, I wish to be who I am, a sensible human being, and yet in some way a woman whom the world might call Heroine.

I know my struggles are neither large nor small. They are just my share of all the struggles that people have to suffer. I also know that there's nothing like the best hero or the one and only hero. All the heroes who live life the way they should are sung of, and even the singing is not important. One does not need a saga written in one's name to be remembered, one just need the acceptance of oneself in one's times and by one's people, and perhaps that's what I crave for, in all the different roles that I read of, and that I can think of.

I have a whole lot of thoughts muddled in my mind right now, and in order to rearrange them, I'll take a break, and rest my fingers that have been typing for last 10 minutes incessantly.

Till then......

I am who I am!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Update

I have been very busy last few days. Last few days, the work load has increased and so has the stress of study. I feel very surprised at the way life has changed drastically. I do not understand what had brought this change so soon or so sudden. Or may be it wasn't sudden but was gradual, just that I didn't find time to reflect, ponder or dwell on it. My vocabulary has changed, while Hindi is gradually going for a toss.

I do not understand why have my personal temperaments changed too? Three days ago, I did something, I shouldn't have. Why? I felt an immense need to. However, if I repeat that same activity, I know I'll grow addicted.

The loneliness is growing high, and the fact is that I do not tend to realize the hit just because I do not find time to dwell on it. I do not understand what would happen if I wouldn't be so busy with two postgraduate degrees and a hell lot of work. But, the most troublesome of all is the fact that it's taking toll on my health, both physical, mental and emotional. More than I had really expected. Today even ^^^^^ ^^^ said that he feels I'm probably taxing myself too much. But the trouble with me is that academic bent of my mind. The trouble is my stubborn nature and the headstrong attitude.

For now, I have only three primary goals. To perform well as a trainer, and to constantly improve. To be a perfect sample of an efficient and effective student, and more than anything..............to keep myself safe and sane emotionally, physically and mentally. I know its going to be very tough, BUT I want to do it!!

Lord,
Grant me strength...not to win...but to fight !
Grant me wisdom....not only to learn...but also to share !
But more than anything Lord,
Grant me....... Sustainance!!

Amen!


©anu (Exploring Myself)

Why?

Why do I want to be a teacher? Or is that I really want to be a teacher? The answer is Not really. I want to be an educationist. I do not want to just teach. I also want my discretion in what to teach, and how to teach. My methodology is something I want to design myself.

Also, things that are often taught in the curricula have got nothing to do with the real things that should be learnt. Rather, they should be re framed, redesigned.

Rest....later....

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Birthday Vacation

I know I sound eccentric at times, but I took up a two day vacation from work, studies and everything, which is going to extend till today later in the noon, approximately 12 hours from now. I am joining work again at 3:00 p.m. today, and what did I do last 2 days? Absolutely nothing except, reading, sleeping, writing emails and eating a little.

I have been worrying about a few things which I had of late stopped fretting about. However, I feel, I cannot resist being what I am, and that when I have excessive love accumulating in myself, I become all the more tensed up, troubled, and disoriented. But, I know this as a matter of fact.

I know about my bipolar issues as well, and I also know that I persist every time, because God helps me. He helps me sustain. I finished six books, fiction mainly. I re-read The Witch of Portobello. I'm on my way to the 6th new fiction in last two days, and I know that by the time I return to work tomorrow, I'd be done with this one, and a non- fiction to go along with it.

I am just desperately waiting for my MBA study material, which I shalll get most probably by the 1st of August, and that shall be the relieving part, getting me into the proffessional student mode once again. I also need to focus on the other degree I plan to do simultaneously.

I am simply happy at the good oppurtunity of having 3 full years at my hand, which I wish to use most judiciously and meticulously. I wish to real a lot of books, update and build up my general awareness and general knowledge along with the current developments in all major aspects of human life. This of course, has to be in addition to my studies for my dual degrees, and my job. I know its going to be pressurising, but I guess God this time wants me to do it, or he wouldn't have helped me developed the wonderful reading speed I have and the understanding that I gain in a subject (comparative of course). Though I'm not a perfect individual, I know I'm a good learner, and I wish to be a perfect one!

Lord,

Grant me ability to put in effort.

So that,

I may learn what is intended for me.

So that, I may fulfill my destiny on this earth,

and be a well-guided instrument at Your hands.

May I never lose my humility Lord!

Amen!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Happy B'day !!

Happy B'day to me!
Happy B'day to me!

Happy B'day, Happy B'day,

Happy B'day to me!!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Ramblings irrelevant

Tomorrow is my b'day! I've been musing about this since days now. People are probably going to celebrate it today, since I am not going to work for the next two days. In fact, I am not going anywhere. I have decided to stay home and finish off some pending reads now. Both fiction and non-fiction.

However, its my b'day wish that I could earn more, so that I could buy more books and read more. Reading, of late has become almost an obsession. I know now what do the terms bibliophile and bibliomaniac mean :D

I have also been thinking about the EQ that I have. One thing that I have immensely gained from these workshops that I have recently conducted is that I love teaching. And another is more about my emotional quotient. It is about the way I think, feel and react towards things and incidents and people.

I was working on this post in the morning, when my internet connection got poofed off. I have been thinking what makes an individual the way he/she is? What makes some people different from most others drastically? To what extent is the human mind trainable?


©anu (Exploring Myself)

The Prayer of a student:

O Lord!

grant me the wisdom,

to travel the roads,

of learning, knowledge and wisdom,

under guidance and mentorship,

with complete humility.

Grant me not.....

that I may be over confident of my knowledge,

but that I may be confident of,

my submissive desire to learn....

From those,

who've already travelled the roads,

from those who haven't.

From those at the destination already,

and from those who haven't yet.

Lord,

grant me the desire,

the will,

and the ability to learn.

From,

everyone,

who crosses my way,

and from everything,

with each passing day.

This I ask thee Lord!

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

I am Enjoying myself !

Seriously!

I am busy with teaching again, and this time something and to students of a level that I always wanted to. I just love this!

I'm busy posting on forums, and helping people with their personality types. Also getting registered in an executive program for MBA. Simultaneously in MA too. I like this hectic and busy schedule most of the times, except when the depression tends to surface up again. I went to meet Swamiji too. I conveyed my thanks to all people who had supported in my exams, now that the results have come. Those to whom, I'm talking and in touch and to those whom I'm no more in touch too.

I'm finally on my way!

Lord,

I thank You for all that You bless me with!
For what I realize is a boon,

and also for which I do not feel the same way.

Grant me more patience,

more thankfulness and

more love,

both,

to feel,

and,

to spread!

Grant me love!,

Pure love,

Your eternal Love!

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

A teacher’s Prayer

Lord,

Help me travel the travelled roads again,

With these people,

Who look up to me,

As they travel the roads,

That You’ve already made me travel.

Help me show them,

That all paths lead to the same goal,

And teachers are just co-travelers.

Make me open to travelling new paths,

As I travel with them on the older ones.

For it is in sharing that I will learn,

In Blank spaces, that I will fill the spaces,

In being a teacher, will I be a true disciple…

And…

Only as a disciple can I be a True Teacher!

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

GyanYog: The Path of Knowledge

I am summarising my discussion about knowledge with a fellow student/trainee of mine and of course this is with his consent: Him: its all bout knowledge knowledge is the supreme power for evrything Me: Not all about it mostly about it ok lets say you've got all knowledge now what? what will you do with it? Him: share it with that lot which is unaware of what knowledge is it gives immense pleasure Me what gives the pleasure, the knowledge, the sharing, or the awe that you get from people? forgive me if any of my words might hurt you unintentionally But, do you now think that we are actually satisfying the desire to recognition when we talk about sharing what we know? Him its just the satisfaction Me when you discuss things in class, or learn about new things, isn't somewhere at the back of the mind there, a desire to be appreciated, and loved for the knowledge? Him no awe have you noted something like this?? Me No, I haven't not in your attitude but what made you ask if I've noted this? Him well its just to check dat hw u test ppl Me and lets say yes I have Him :) Me how would that matter, if that's not your tendency? Tell me something....... when S asked me not to lend you the book the other day, what got yuo irritated? was it the fact that she interfered in your business? Him no well.... Me see, am not interested in your personal issues, its just that you mentioned it, and am taking it as an example Him nothin prsnl Me and its gonna disappear from my thought once the discussion is over so what was the reason of iritation? Him its just dat wen m into sumthin i m just doin dat thing i made my minfd to read dat book Me and anyone who stops you from it, you get irritated right? Him and dan i was deprived of the wealth in dat book Me kool now, here's what I think about this You wanted some knowledge someone interfered you didn't get it now ........ you didn't like it right? Him its just the thought dat i won't b able to read dat buk dat irritated me Me but does this thought give you the wealth hidden in it? and the irritation? Him i dont think so :( Me and for those few moments when this irritating thought occupied you..... do you call them knowledgeable and knowledgeful moments? Him S has made dis happen to many others Me so, when this thought was on mind, neither did you get what you wanted, nor did you get something else, all you got was a negativity. and why should it matter to you? remember, Knowledge is bliss, when it teaches you to be blissful everytime The knowledge or the lack of the knowledge which causes any sort of irritation ......... is it bliss really? Him dis is wat d dilemma is all about Me I know there was a time, when I read anything and everything from religion, spirituality, science, to even erotica why? because I loved what I learnt But then....... I realised....... somewhere deep down I was losing my humility losing touch with reality in the sense that I was forgetting that other people were better than me at different tings as well things* and then...... I understood with experience that.......... Knowledge is not only what you learn It is just the first step More of it is about practice, and most of it is about sharing However........ The essence is....... to gain, practice, share and yet not be attatched to it because unless you're detatched from the learnings, you'll not unlearn and make space for new learnings to come so bliss is only in things that are permanent, and if not permanent, then ever increasing why is knowledge blissful? because it is a way to know beyond what we know Him nw its getting clear Me beyond the material I know, beyond the concepts, and gradually.. beyond this world that I see and to see beyond this world is the aim of the knowledge..... This is Gyanyoga Him this is what even i thought about Me and it is not for everyone So, if you choose THIS as your path BE CAREFUL It will raise the ego It will make yuo arrogant and that will bring the weakness of mind, the diversion of energies and result........ fall down from the gyanyoga Him how would the mind beocme weak?? Me define weakness? weakness is of two types 1. lack of strength and 2. wastage of strength just like there're two kinds of deserts/ the hot and the cold in the cold desert..there is water but frozen Him yup Him ok Me similarly........ the brain is sharp but..... polluted unclear the understanding becomes foggy because it becomes conditional the moment you see people less intellectual......... you start thinking on their level while you should be thinking on yours conveing on theirs and then conveying on yours gradually whenever you see S........ or anyone else forthat matter....... you start thinking about things that ideally shouldn't get any attention and a part of your mind is diverted Him ya dats true Me you're hearing, but not fully listening you're seeing, but not visualising you're present there, but you aren't living the moment and that;s when you get only limited knowledge, not full On this note........... anything you want me to think about? Him nothing to think its all to observe Me what do you want me to observe? Him its for me to observe now u r already on a level where i cant reach in a long tym Me No dude, am no where practically no where compare it with the universe :) Him but i m sure 2 reach dere sumday Me You'll reach higher just keep two things in mind 1. keep learning Him and Me do not resist or control thoughts, feelings emotions, but just introspect basically.........aptitude and attitude and you'll reach much higher Him i'll abide by dis Me again don't bind yourself to anything anyone any at all Him binding in the sense?? Me keep that for the next session ©anu (Exploring Myself)

Trust and Faith

Over the years, I have realised that we tend to trust people, and we tend to distrust the same people as well. In short, we tend to both trust and distrust the same people for different things at different times in our lives.

This subject makes me ponder a few basic questions:
1. what is trust?
2. Why do we trust?

3. Should we trust?
4. Whom is at all, should we trust?

Here's what I feel about the same:
Trust is....... a feeling of security. A sense of comfort and safety which comes around some people from within. This is one of those 6th senses that we at times talk about. Trust is something, all of us (and yes! I mean all!) have experienced but none can put into words. Fundamentally, I like being with people, because........that makes me happy.... why does it make me happy? because psychologically, am a social animal, physically, I need people for the division of labor, socially I need protection against harms, which a group can provide me better

and....spiritually........ The soul recognizes that the other souls are a part of the same Eternal being that I belong to. so, though I don't understand this, my soul recognizes its kin.

Now, to establish this lost kinship, and due to the establishment of this lost kinship, we tend to trust people.

As to should we, and whom if at all should we trust? I feel, That's a risk, but definitely worth playing. And should we? It comes automatically on people whom it has to. There's not even any sort of active thinking involved.

On this note... I can't think anymore right now. will add later if something's there.

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Reflections - Spiritual Guidance

hmm... this post is being written.......because.... I wanted to write it :) Lol, every post is written for the same reason, because I want to do it, because I feel like doing it, and because its an irresistible urge deep within.

Well......... today, its going to be about a lot of things.Its going to be something about myself, then about some other people, and then a prayer....may be about some ideas as well. Am not sure....here, this goes.............

1. Spiritual Guidance:

This is something I find very ironic. As I was reading J. Krishnamoorthy yesterday, I realized that He said exactly what I've been feeling over the ages. I do not accept any authority on myself in any aspect of my life generally speaking. Neither in the way I eat, dress, sleep, think, read or choose my profession, nor in the way I behave, the choices I make and the kind of life I want to live.

Then, why should I be accepting the authority of someone in my spiritual life?

Just because they say they've experienced, God, The eternal Truth and the ultimate reality?

Is it necessary that I will be having the same experiences if I follow the rituals they prescribe? and if yes, will it be mine? would it not be second hand? He very bluntly says....."We are second hand people"

I have decided, that I will continue to explore the spiritual path in the same manner as I've been......like a free spirit, a wanderer who would rather not stick to anyone, anywhere or anything.

The 'yayavar' in a true sense......the sense of spirit!

Lord,

help me realise the fact that

You love me as an individual,

and that I must find you individually.

Help me understand the difference between,

receiving help and being led,

and ,if You think I am to be led,

lead me Yourself Lord,

for Thine,

am I.

and Thee are mine.

Amen!

©anu (Exploring Myself)

Result Part 2

I got the entrance test result for teachers' training today. Have secured 60 % marks, and a good rank, I know I'll be able to get a proper kind of a seat even in my town. But, I'm not really happy about it. Why I am not sure. Anyhow, I am thankful for the result to everyone who supported me with preparation and exams. Very specially to the almighty :)

©anu (Exploring Myself)